feeling overwhelmed
Feeling overwhelmed by everything lately. Specifically, the situation with my aunt. I have a hard time seperating my actual feelings from others. As it is right now, It has been 8 days since my Aunt overdosed, and was admitted to the hospital. She was transfered to the psych unit, and will now be discharged tomarrow. It has been a very loooooong 8 days so far for me, and I am completely exhausted. Still trying to get a Medicaid waiver going faster than it is. Everything with her situation is uncertain right now. She is going back to the same situation that led to her being in the hospital. I have been on the phone all day today. I DO NOT like having to talk on the phone, but I have no choice. I have had to put on the "normal" whatever facade while talking to everyone. I have had a head ache that does not want to go away. I feel like my head is ready to explode. I have so many worries. I also am worried that with all of my driving to visit my aunt and make sure that she is okay, that I will not have money to pay all of my bills again this month. I feel like I am sitting on a slowly sinking boat, just waiting for it to go under.
Genisa, I'm sending along my best wishes for you and your aunt. I'm so glad she has you to help her. Hope you can get some rest soon.
I can't rely on anyone anyone else to make the calls. I can get things moving much faster than anyone else, so far. They weren't even going to assign her to person that would do the evaluation for her Medicaid waiver till next Wednesday. this was as of last yesterday. I called and got it moved to Today, but we all agreed that it would be better to wait till Monday, since she was being discharged today. I have toured the two possible assisted living facilities and we narrowed it down to the one that is most livable for her. She has two cats which everyone else seems to think that she could get by without. I told them that these two cats are a part of her family, and she will be taking them with anywhere she goes. I am real tired right now. I had been with her today from about 12:30- to about 5:30, then went grocery shopping, since my husband was complaining that there wasn't any food to eat.( there was plenty, just not what he likes). I'm now eating a dinner of nachos with chees, and clausens pickles. then I'm going to bed.
Wow! You do have a lot to deal with right now! I can't imagine how you are juggling all of that. I'm sure your aunt is VERY lucky to have you advocating for her. In times like these it is VERY important to take care of yourself. Practice good self care. You can't help anyone else if you don't first put the oxygen mask on yourself.
I know that waiting game well. It's always waiting with the government. Obviously this is adding to all the stress involved. No offense, but seriously, tell your husband to go get his own food! It is not your job to take care of him. That's ridiculous and the last thing you need right now.
Just my opinion. Take it lightly.
Squirrel
I don't trust him with the grocery shopping. We get food assistance via(formerly know as food stamps) and if he did the shopping, we would run out way before the end of the month. It would also be seriously void of any healthy food like veggies and fruit. Today, I worked hard on getting the kitchen cleaned, as it has been neglected for a bit, cleaning all of my aquariums, and my husband got angry at me for not washing any of his pants. The laundry has been his responsiblility and only responsiblility for the last two weeks. I am not responnnsible for his laundry. I don't evven have anything to wear becasue he hasn't washed much. I even cooked a nice dinner, and he didn't even say thanks. I'm so tired of doing it all. As of last time that I talked to my aunt, she said that she isn't taking her antidepresant, so ... I don't see how anyplace is going to take her if she isn't even taking her meds. I also found out that she isn't eating very much. There are so many uncertainties right now. My favorite season is arriveing, but I have no money for buying needed things for the garden that I want to put in. I has spent the last 4 years at my last place putting in a nice garden, now that I moved last May, I have to start all over. Gardening is very thearapuedic for me. I also love my patio swing, which is now all torn and needs replacing, but again, no finances for it. I'm feeling so bummed. I've been wanting a nice big trampoline for the longest time, but I don't think that will ever become a reality at all. I also need new tires on the van, a very much needed tune up( new wires and spark plugs), an oil change, and new wiper blades, and not a penny to put toward it. No mini vacation to look forward to either. Everything just seems all so hopeless.
Hi, Genisa. The situation with your aunt IS overwhelming! I'm sure that having all that going on makes doing even the basics difficult, and the financial worries only make matters worse. I imagine that anyone would feel that way. What a drag that you're having to deal with all this right now. Can nobody else help by making the phone calls? It sounds like you could really use some relief.
It's almost the sabbath for me, so I'm going to prepare for that, but I'll keep a good thought for you tonight and tomorrow. I hope your head feels better, and you can get things settled in a way that works for your aunt. Blessings.