Got thinking about this stuff yesterday

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meandmyfriends
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Joined: 7/16/2012

I think this place here fits. I am going through a re-evaluation of my life after my relationship ended, I got fired from my job and couldn't go into my apartment anymore.

I am in my early twenties. I study at the university and am writing my thesis. Studying, going to work and playing games over internet are my favourite past times right now. I also like to be around children and animals, especially dogs. I wish I could have my own dog, but that is not possible at the moment.

I have always been very interested in relationships. I do not care how old or which gender, if any, my friends are. I also hope to make new animal friends. I have always been very interested in religion. When I was a child, I was interested in all mystical religions and also religions which had a lot of rules. Nowadays I am a member of an international Christian congregation.

I like being with people who are energetic, but also quiet. I don't mind if they are quiet or loud, as long as they accept me and let me be when I need to be by myself or when I want to focus on my hobbies. I have a few friends who don't need me to talk that much all the time.

I resent eye-contact and being very close to people, unless they are my family members or good friends. I am happiest when I can be on the bus on my own, reading or doing other stuff, and there are not very many people in there with me.

I prefer to be with women, because I feel they are safe and tender. I also like men who have feminine qualities. I am very loud, make rude jokes and am frequently absent-minded. I want to communicate as clearly as possible. This doesn't always work very well.

When I was in school everyone said I was special and gifted, and that was why others didn't understand me. They also said I shouldn't focus on being special and show it too much. In stead I could keep it to myself and be secretly happy. I thought this was dishonest, but played along. I get angry, frustrated and sad very easily but I don't show my emotions. A lot of people tell me that I am a bit anti-social or appear cold and uninterested.

I prefer to be with people who are religious, seriously interested in a hobby or ideology, either younger or older than me. I get along well with foreigners and people with different disabilities. I don't really need very many friends but sometimes like to make new ones.

I hope this place will help me on my way.

 

Sharon
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Joined: 11/21/2009

Welcome to AWN! It sounds like you experienced a lot of oppresive people sending negative messages to you during your school years. I hope it's gotten better for you.

Sharon daVanport

"Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people." Eleanor Roosevelt

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