Hi. My name is Jill. I'm 48 and just found out in 2010 that I have autism.  It was a little too much, and a lot too late. Can anyone relate?  I don't even know where to begin or what to share.  My life has not gone very well (to put it mildly) being that I didn't know what was wrong with me, or where to get help, or what help to get.  Now, I'm wondering if there's any hope of creating a life worth living at my age.  Are any of you around my age?  Does anybody here live within a day's drive of Portland, Maine?  God, do I need a friend.  It was a lot too late because I had a son with HF Autism/Asperger's as well.  Unfortunately, I lost him to suicide 5 years before I finally became aware (through neuro-psychological testing) of what the root cause of our problems were/are. I'll be going on my first Walk For Autism this coming Sunday - for the Maine Autism Society.  I've decided there's nothing left to lose in my "coming out" with my autism.  I'm already so alienated from "normal" society, what do I care if people don't understand?  They've never understood.  I can't tell you how many psychiatrists I've seen over the years - never ONCE did they suggest I go see a neuro-psychologist.  Has anybody here found friends who understand?  I'd appreciate your encouragement, experiences, strength....HOPE. Thanks.  : )